There are people in the world who just have it. They just have it cold. I saw a woman give speech once. She was rehearsing for a very important event. She cut lines in a black suit; beige shell revealed between the lapels of the jacket. Hair pulled back. Cheek bones were high, and there was a light dusting of makeup on her face. It pushed out those cheekbones, and softened her lips. She was nervous. I knew she wasn't very sure of herself. But she was so tall, and so beaut...
We're always hatching plans. W'ere always going to get in shape, stop smoking, and keep our house clean. We are always going to move to a state without winter. We're going to do a lot of things. Next week. Next month. Everyone has a friend who constantly lives with a plan. Never gets done. I used to be one of those people. I'm not anymore. I still have plans, but I don't talk about them so much. I still have a million plans I will never do. Just don' t talk so much anymore.
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Never thought I'd live in Phoenix. Pictured myself someplace else; better. My girlfriend hates it here as much as I do. I just hate that I'm here; she hates that she's here, and blames herself for me being here. A place can do that, sometimes. Where would I rather be? What would I rather be doing? What do I WANT?' Maybe I'm having a quarter-life crisis. Sounds stupid, I know. Most everything I hear or say sounds stupid, though. If I moved away to Chicago, or San Francisco.....